My interest in "scrambled porn" has evolved from my experiences as a young woman living in a male-centered culture. Power in the hierarchal structure of female social groups is achieved by gaining positive male attention. Therefore, females are socialized to focus on pleasing the opposite sex from the time social skills begin to develop. During my own sexual maturity, my experiences were focused on pleasing my male partner with almost no acknowledgment of my own needs or desires.
I have feminist issues with aggressive porn; this media epitomizes and fosters a male-centered culture. At the very least, I believe it contributes to the degradation of women and to misconceptions of how to sexually please women. Aggressive, hard-core porn distorts the meaning and portrayal of true intimacy. For me, "scrambled porn" removes the aggression of hard-core porn and allows the viewer brief glimpses of sexuality; therefore introducing the mental aspects of eroticism and imagination.
I first digitally document televised imagery and then distort each digital photograph in Adobe Photoshop. I use these printed images to inspire and direct my paintings and drawings. By watching and painting "scrambled porn", I feel comforted, not threatened by sex and it is in this process that I take control of my own sexuality and desires. My goal is to transform porn's depiction of sex, through the process of manipulation, to represent the ephemeral, beautiful moments shared during true lovemaking.